Sep 16, 2012


I would like to revive the blog with some shocking turn of events that has occurred over this weekend.

Firstly, I would like to apologize for not having written in ages. Been quite busy with exams and well catching up in being a lazy teen. I do regret not writing more about every thing that has happened; the good and the bad. However, I needed to write THIS one out to settle my mind. Overflowed with thoughts and emotions I needed some sort of "pre-closure" [if that is a real thing] before the actual soon to be closure between us.

For the soon to be gone guy in my life I would like to take this opportunity to sincerely Thank You for the following:- 
-Taking me to the movies
-Being at each Graduating ceremony
-Telling/Showing that your proud of me after achieving some sort of accomplishment
-Dropping me to school or lessons or simply by one of my friends
-Taking us on family trips
-Waking up at nights to make sure I was okay when I have a nightmare
-For ensuring I was prepared for a new day
-Taking me on amusement park rides because I was too scared to go alone
-For teaching me how to ride a bike and roller skating
-Spending the weekend where it was all about us
-Making mum smile when she needed it the most
-For being there when mum was sick 
-For being present at family gatherings so no one would watch me awkward and ask, "Hey, where's your dad?"
-For wiping my tears when I cried after getting buffed from mum
-For carrying me fishing because even though I wasn't enough you tried to make me enough for you
-For buying me all the toys I ever wanted
-For not having other kids

Yes, Thanks for NOT doing all of the above. I definitely know that when you're gone permanently I won't have daring memories to keep me up at nights crying because just like your presence at home, it would be gone eventually.However, Thanks for filling my 18 years of life with utter bs thinking that one day, You would've changed and come back to us. 

Unfortunately, Time waits on no one, certainly not for assholes like you.

Hope your new family is worth it all, Dad, time and all the luxuries.


Apr 2, 2012

Midnight/Early Morning Tales [Part 1]

  Bored one night, I asked my good friend to relate to me a story.
This is what he wrote…

"So there was 3 pigs right
And 3 other mafia pigs
The 3 pigs had owed the mafia pigs some money
But they didn’t want pay cuss they were fed up of the mafia pigs bullshit
So the mafia pigs hire this goon wolf name Wolfy
To do a hit on one of the pigs so the others will pay
Went to the 1st house
This house was made out of weed
So wolfy was like "pig you home?"
"Open de door"
Then pig was like "not by the hair of my chinny chin chin"
So wolfy was like "hear this nah you owe my boy mafia pigs some money and I’m here to collect"
Pig was like "come thru nah big man!"
So wolf huffed and puffed
And smoked the entire weed house
So the pig run and gone by his brother
The wolf now
As a mother fucker
Gone by the 2nd house
He said "pig why you run bro?"
Pig was like "idk ask your mom"
Now the 2nd house
Was built out of erm
Frozen ice cream
So wolf end up eating to house trying to get to them
And came down with a serious case of brain freeze
Which gave the 2 pigs time to run to their brothers house
So when wolf wake up he was high and his head was hurting him
So he went to the airport
Fly to Africa
Went and train with kony and his children army
And learn how to use a sniper rifle
He jump back on a plane
And went to the 3rd pig house
And was like "so pig this how it hide be, I see how it is, I try to play nice eh"
Then the pigs
Who were in the last house
Which was made out of concrete cuss the 3rd brother had a brain unlike his brothers
They was all calm and mellow
Because they had some weed left over from the 1st pig house
And they were high an shits
So wolf now went up San Fernando Mountain
And look through their window and shoot all 3 with one bullet
The end"

                                            Just for a laugh…                                                           
Related [not written; simply edited] by: Amethyst 

Mar 27, 2012

Gift Bags

Today was supposed to be a joyous day, filled with lots of smiles, instead it took a turn for the worse.

There are 12 months in a year. It consists of 52 weeks. Within these weeks there are 365/364 days. You choose to call one day. One day out of 365/364 days. Are the others not as important to hear my voice?

I remember once for my birthday we lit one candle on a cake and took off the lights and there they were. Fireflies. How? I have no idea how they came to be at that moment. That moment that can never be imitated. That moment that can never be erased from my memory. I wished we could have  shared more moments like those. Oh how I wish.

When you minified our relationship I was left wounded. On hearing the news of your new bundle of joy, once again I was shot down. Unable to stop the tears of betrayal I looked to my right and saw the tears in her eyes as well. If she can get the courage to move ahead so can I. “What a petty thing I wasted tears on”, I thought years later.

“You never learn”

I’ve watched you hurt me over and over. How stupid of me to think this year would be different. Such tall bars were set for you on hearing praises about you from her. It annoyed me the most when she talked about you like the past never happened. She was the bigger person in us three. She knew how to forgive. I, on the other hand, I am your blood. I have the same nasty thoughts you have.  Funny isn’t it? Though I have something you don’t anymore and that’s, Her. She taught me to be a better person than you can ever be. Hence I’ll always be happy without your presence.

The pain still strikes me on the mention of you. I can’t will away that pain. I do wish I can.
So, I apologise for hitting that ignore button on the phone on seeing your number. I apologise for not being of your kind. I apologise for not being there for you to bring me down. I apologise for taking away for freedom. Lastly, I apologise for not being the son you always wanted.